Many of us are so impatient with asking the Lord to grant us the dreams we want. Until we become tired of asking that we end up not asking God with what we want.

Yesterday was mother’s day and just like a mother who waits for 9 months for her baby to finally say hello and get out of her womb…. a mother who tries not to show an impatient breath of waiting and aches at the back in carrying her child for 9 long months….. Us, on one hand, waits until such a dream comes true…  we choose to not to show the pains and labor of waiting or the worse, stop and give up…..

just yesterday, we were on our way  home when my niece, asked about a resort in norzagaray bulacan. We were just curious how it looks like or if the place is just right for  a weekend get away with the family. We went straight to the resort, not knowing how far it is from marilao. The sun is directly pouring its strength on us that we want to jump outside the car and get some fresh air instead of the aircon. I was listening to the step up 2 soundtrack and finished it and we were still on the road,…

we waited….. we saw several signages telling us to drive some more.. and more… we were really frustrated that we told ourselves that the resort should be some place we picture on our mind… a place with fresh air, a place to dive in for the hot Summer….

we  waited…
and waited..
and waited…. it has been 2 hours of driving…

Until, a huge, old church welcomes us at the end of the road.. it was a very solemn place with structures telling us that its older than any of us… looks like it has been there since the Spaniards’ times…the joy that God puts in my heart leaps… and I can’t say anything but "God, its always worth the long wait…"

If it is not about this resort we were curious about, we could never ever find this church in  norzagaray bulacan. I realized, that in life it is always worth to wait for Gods greatest blessings , he will surprise you at the right place, at the right time…

God knows best..

and the best is yet to come…. :p

Everyday is a battlefield. Everyday we’ll fight for our dreams, and if something happens, and this thing is deviating from our dreams, we feel frustrated, disappointed, depressed….

Whenever I feel the blow of the wind, i feel such an inner peace, a feeling that I belong to no one, but God. I belong to his plans. Thus, placing everything before God…Entrusting our life to the one who made us takes a lot of faith… yes, it does. It is always easy for us to say, we trust him, but deep inside, we are afraid, apprehensive,, doubting…

It feels like we are in a jar, contained for the rest of our lives battling to get some air to breath… and we always forget to ask for help… we fail to trust God , we fail to ask him … we keep on doing the same things everyday, while the top of the jar is open…. we don’t try to ask for help, so that someone can pull us up and catch the breath of abundance..

Life is crazy,. but  sweet… Life is half empty but it really is full…

Everyday I stretch myself to get a seat at the MRT, and whenever  I hear the sound of the train, people around me would bump each other just to get inside the train as quick as they can… they don’t even think about the other doors open.. wide open..

Life is crazy but sweet… life is half empty but full… it’s a matter of choosing what is outside of the box and asking ourselves.. what’s the wisest thing to do?

yep! today is Friday but Sunday will come. Many times in our lives we have failed or people failed us one way or another… then keep it in ourselves and hold on to our past and we can’t let go and move on to what is ahead of us…. This year’s holy week had renewed my faith with Jesus Christ. I learned that all battles are always in favor of us, all these  circumstances are always  big blessings to us…

I have been with different people for the past two days and feel so blessed because I feel the love of God through these people so humble and trustworthy that I can pour myself to them. I gained friends too! Got Sir Larry Gamboa his autograph also hehehe he was one of the retreatants - he is a very good friend of bro. bo - TIta Marissa, the director  of anawim was there too and she made me and my cousin laugh all the time because of her sweet humor,  very natural sense of humor indeed.. the kind of humor with a substance mind you. A friend who will lead us to starting blessing the elderlies through ANAWIM foundation in MOntalban Rizal, and many many others who had made the retreat a very successful one.

I’ve contemplated on a lot of things about my life, about being a servant of the Lord. THese things might not fit this page though hehehe but to summarize it all… I now believe that I am God’s CHampion and created to become a great person. It’s about me becoming bias to "action" (execution) or let’s just say it’s a matter of doing something about my life.. It’s time to bring substance to it and take it to the next level.. becoming a servant and instrument of God’s love..

Whatever past i have, it was my FRIDAY, but hey! SUNDAY is coming….

have a blessed holy week..

madilim, maingay..maliwanag,tahimik.
tumutulo na ang pawis ko sa paghugot
mahirap, masakit, mainit.. "aray!" nasugatan ako.

mabigat, madulas, mainit , lalamig, amoy bulaklak pero maalikabok
mawawala, bibilis ang pag bukas ng zipper,… manong, sira ata to?

(sa cagayan) "pila ne? wala na bang tawad" - hay sa wakas! naka kita din ako ng bag sa ukay ukay.

The current are running through its tracks… sounding like crashing everyone who tries to jump onto it..

The rails are magnet forcing you to jump and free yourself from  the curses of encounters…

The doors will open and one by one the droplets of your sweat will pour your whole body until you’ll see yourself standing and  shaking while the train’s moving to the other end..

No space for you to sit on, no space for you to breathe..

The santolan station so empty… until it reaches the other end - Recto - FULL…

The train’s wheels screeches like mad fire trying to catch the mistakes of the past, though the train’s walls will tell you, that whatever you miss in direction, you cannot make up on time.

At the next station - Katipunan - I Heard the voices of people around me.. different smiles, different frowns, different smells… all are busy with their own lives trying to sew the pieces of themselves together… everything that they’ve left on the rails were pieces they have tried to forget. Hence, I can sense it… i can read their minds.. and it stroke me like wild fire…

A bolt thumped me, I have to step down the train.. I realized that I have made my life meaningful, and I wanna leave the tracks with a happy face and a content soul…

Leaving all the madness, leaving all the pains.. I’ll start a new life.. and will find someone at the end of the train.. and together, we’ll baste the tracks of heaven called……….

LIFE.

the world so vague, so helpless, so sick will find you
the roads shaken, rough and hollow will keep you
the heart so soft, pure and thirsty will be filled with love when I find you.

the soul conquers my heart
while thy heart lives by the love filled up by your endless caress
Its with love i found you.,
I will live, love again and conquer you.

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for roy :p                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                        
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                           

All these years i have been facing the walls of limitations….. Going back to the events that had happened in my life this year, including my near death experiences hehehe, still, I am bounded by limitations… Hence, these limitations are like bars in prison that can only be unlocked by no one but ME.

Yes, unlocking these bars means expanding my expectations… I don’t want to dream anymore, I don’t want to ask for something I’d really want to have for 2008, but I am claiming that I will have these dreams happen this year. I don’t believe in new year’s resolution though, well I did, but not anymore… I believe that changing our beliefs, our practices, changing ourselves can happen anytime of the year… 2 or 3 years of exploring what i want for myself could be enough, and I am looking forward to meeting the new ME… and explore the other part of myself, until  I am receiving too much that I can give too much to those who need me, the poor, the sick, and the people who don’t have any….

2007 has been a good year for me, yet, it is not enough for me to say that I’d have the best times of my life, I have the other half of my life to be filled in just yet, for the glory of God….. with all God’s blessings to me and to my family in 2007, I am receiving my gift to be God’s instrument, to inspire people, to lead and to succeed….

I will change the world, one person at a time…

THe thing a hate the most is BLAME. The thing that makes it worse is the FLAME of blame. I need to shout the hatred, the anger, the angst, the cancer of rudeness and immorality of people. These are the things that makes me feel so helpless. You wouldn’t know who to trust when people start blaming you with something you never commited. You wouldn’t know who to trust when people start blaming you just because of this epidemic attitude of blaming without even knowing what the real situation is..

All I care about is MY POWER TO CHOOSE.. MY POWER TO MAKE A DIFFERENCE and I choose to just take grasp of their necks and slash it till they’d never say a single word and stop becoming a slave of miserable people who would never ever become unselfish of the world.. coz all these people care about are themselves… they’d never see the big picture, they’d never want to make a difference … they will never ever do make a difference so I WILL MAKE THE BIG LEAP…

*crashed and burned….

hmm, it’s been a long time since I last blogged. At some point, I actually miss it. hehehe.

It’s been a busy life with me since June07 and  I hate to admit I am enjoying it. I might have changed over the past weeks though but changed on a greater perspective.. I just feel that I always have a choice… a choice how to live everyday of my life. As I deal with different kinds of people, I realize how people differ much with each other. And these differences make me feel really unique. I appreciate more how God created me. I am now attending bible study which I hadn’t had a chance to do back then. I have more time with my family, more time to sleep at least, more time to use my talents, more time to learn. maybe less logging into friendster heeheh but that’s ok, I have more important things to do anyway. I just miss my old life, that’s all, but no plans of coming back because I have moved on much that I now see the importance of me contributing to the world… I can’t say just yet how I could contribute largely to the world, but all I know is that, my new journey is to serve and be of great source of potential for the country to help no one else but the my fellow Filipinos. I don’t speak like a pro filipino eh? hehe just want to express the idea of US, Filipino youth making a difference anywhere we go.

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People would ask, what keeps you fighting? or what are you passionate about?

I don’t know for some but, recently, just recently,  I realized how far earning and learning differ from each other, I realized that the only thing that keeps you fighting is keeping that PASSION burning…..

If you are really passionate about something, and you really love serving and doing such a mission, you’re on the right track. The youth, like us, so brave and aggressive are still immature and yet still not ready to face life. Why? Coming from a standpoint of a youth, who needs to earn big bucks to support the family, it is a battle between life and death if this "young" would want to resign from a multinational company, he is in fact letting his whole life die. Yet with the grace and wisdom of the Lord, I cross the bridge of life and death, resigned from an outsourcing company and battle heads on with the big fishes of the IT industry… I can say, I am HAPPY, finally.

The satisfaction of career, relationships and life is here. I can’t imagine how my life could be fighting without a mission. I would not want to generalize our young employers, everyone has their own mission, but my point is, as soon as you find this mission, keep the fire burning because it is the same fire that could make you happy for the rest of your life.

God bless us all!