Oh well, a lot of things happened over the past days. It was a shock in fact. I never thought it would even happen. Whatever God’s plan is, I trust him. It’s painful that we ended this way, "me" without knowing the things happening at the back of his mind, I have loved so much, and I was hurt so much. I let go because it’s useless to win him back, in fact I did’t even dream of winning him back anymore because I know It is indeed useless. However, since one door closes, another door opens.. Ganun lang tlga life…
At least, I never done anything to hurt him for that entire year,… never ever in my dreams to hurt him.. pero ganun talga.. pinagmuka akong tanga, then left me all of a sudden.. Right now, I learned, that it is always a must that you still leave something for yourself, kasi you’ll never know until when the "person" continues to love you. People are given the freedom to choose, the freedom to be strong and the freedom to not to think of yourself only. I am not insisting to have him stay, but I am questioning the choices he made, he should have ended ours first which he used to call "his life" before moving on to the other life he calls now, I suggest. Hindi yung alam ko araw araw sa buhay ko minahal ko siya , pero wala din, sinaktan nia lang din ako ng sobra..
and so, after 4 days I realized that he is not even worth my tears… in this tough times, I found out that I got a lot of friends .. real friends… and family… I am still thankful that I am given the the wisdom to think in this craziest moment of my life… still God is there to tell me "hey kid, I am giving you the sun, to feel that I am giving you hope.. go on, because you are my child, go on because I am the one who loves you dearly, I am here for you, I am here to tell you life goes on and on"
Jendz,
Life is a journey where we shall encounter trials while we live. Sometimes, in this life we’re living, we have to make difficult choices. We have to prioritize things that matters to us most. At other times, we have to sacrifice ourselves for the sake of the people we love. Love, yes, it is indeen a very powerful word that entails a lot of responsibility.
I know you have given your best and made was hurt. BUt it is only through all this pain and sufferings you tend to be wiser and stronger. God will never give you problems that you cannot surpass. Rest assured, that along your journey, I am with you along with the rest of Angels, guiding you, holding you and ready to lend a hadn whenever you need to.
Just be strong. Never plant hate for at this time, it wouldn’t help a thing. Just forgive and try to forget and move on with your life. I know you’re very strong and soon it’ll all pass.
Always pray and always keep a smile in your face. It’s not your lost… will never be a battle lost to your gain.
Love you and I’m always here.
May 22, 2006 @ 3:58 amaby, thank you. you are right, it’s indeed not wise to plant hate. I’ll let the Good Lord do things for me this time… sa dami ng sumalo skin, I don’t have to do anything else to prove to the world i have done nothing wrong. It’s a fresh start again.. from here, I will build more dreams..
thanks again..
May 22, 2006 @ 12:47 pmeverything happens for a reason.. maybe the guy you thought was meant for you wasnt the guy that God wants you to be with… He has his plans.. all we have to do is follow him and accept whatever He has planned for us… be strong…. dito lang ako
May 30, 2006 @ 1:37 pmthanks xaehnn.. kahit na you’re at the other part of the globe, i feel your presence.. salamat po.
May 31, 2006 @ 4:45 pm